The following are words by a writer who goes by the name Sunshine
La Canción
I don't miss us
I should probably start with that
And I don't miss you
Not like that
I don't mean it in a harsh way
But it's the truth
I guess I never really did
It was always easier
To just shut everything out
In your case - 'everyone'
Don't get me wrong
It was great
You were and hopefully still are great
But at some point you lost me
More so, whoever you though that was
If I'm being honest
I'm not really sure of who you met either
We share some of the same traits
The same laugh, hair, height
But between our time and now
She turned into me
The difference being
A few physical pieces
And the air of confidence
She didn't have that, but I do
Speaking of 'our time'
I don't fully remember it
Sorry
There were things I hadn't mentioned
Things that stole my attention
During phone calls and text conversations
If I could do it again I would
Because from what I do remember
It was great - yeah, that word again
Your stories and perspectives
The moments I could feel you
Getting lost in your own memories
Lost in your thoughts, hopes and dreams
Or whatever random topic
I wouldn't trade those for anything
I'll admit, I had some growing to do
We both did
Technically we both still do
It's just something we do as people
We grow every single day
But the trick
The trick is knowing where and how
I needed to grow on my own
To find my voice again
And learn to stand on my own again
Most importantly
I needed to do it for me
If for whatever reason
We meet again
And can start over again
I hope we can learn to like who we've both become
If not, that's just fine
Every relationship
Whether platonic or intimate
Has it's expiration date
Either way I want you to know
That I'm grateful
For the moments we shared
Good and bad
And the impact you had on me
Even when you weren't 'around'
There was a point
Where just thinking of how we were
Made me smile
And there was a point
Where thinking of how that changed
Made me sit and think
Think of where I went wrong
Or what I had done
When in reality
It was just life going around up
And continuing us on our paths
I don't think of you anymore
Not like I used to
But every now and again
I remember your face
Or the way you laughed
And I remember who I was
And of everything that's happened
Between then and now
Yeah, it still makes me think
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